My toy is a boy, but I’ll make him into a girl one way or another!

TSF Showcase 2025-03
My Toy by Maideneir

Back before I formally began TSF Showcase as a segment, I discussed A Grey Day by Maideneir. A Koikatsu comic that starts out fairly innocuously, centering around a regular guy trying to pick up girls with the help of a time traveler who wants to make sure he gets with the right girl. …But then it pivots into being a non-TSF feminization comic where the protagonist is kicked out of their home and starts living with their new love interest. Only to then spiral into a story with mind control, teenage prostitution, the introduction of a new romantic interest, and the protagonist being forced to live in a safe house. All to prevent the conception of a man who would destroy the world in the future. And I’m not even going to allude to what happens in the final fourth of the story.

I try to treat most of these TSF Showcases as a call for people to read quality and interesting TSF works. Not just because I like them, but because I want people to broaden their love for the genre and expand their understanding of what a TSF story can even be. However, I consider A Grey Day to be one of the most unique and wild rides I’ve ever encountered, and that is saying a LOT! I would love to give it a full run-through, as there is a lot to cover, but I don’t want to cover something I already covered less than two years ago, and we have new hotness to discuss.

Following A Grey Day, Maideneir bounced between two projects. Winds of Change and The Satin Wars, but neither got to a complete second chapter before she disappeared, closed her Patreon page, and came back 8 months later. This was due to creative and real life challenges she encountered at the time. I am always sympathetic to these sorts of things… but she had a Patreon with about 40/50 backers at the time, and did not communicate that she was going on a hiatus, at all. Heck, I think she even shut down her Patreon for a time. That was just a bad move. It takes literal minutes to say that you are going on a hiatus, people are generally understanding of that, and getting ghosted by someone sucks.

Maideneir eventually re-emerged and re-established herself in May 2024, where she began work on two series. My Toy and How My Genius Daughter Turned Me Into Her New Mama, both of which concluded this past month, As such, I finally read through My Toy… and decided that I needed to do a TSF Showcase on it. Because, much like A Grey Day, this series gets weird, wild, and has a distinct creative energy that I just love. So strap in, folks!

Table of Contents:

Part 1: The Witch With Magenta Eyes

The series… weirdly enough begins almost exactly like A Grey Day. With an average-looking dark-haired guy, named Alex, asking a girl out right next to the stairway of the singular Koikatsu school with its iconic green hallways. Except rather than getting slapped, the girl, Aubrey, a cute blue-haired busty twintails type, is actually more than happy to reciprocate Alex’s feelings, inviting him to go out to the movies this weekend. This is great news for Alex… until he tries to leave school and is accosted by Aubrey’s supposed boyfriend, Brad. Alex lacks the strength to defend himself, so all he can do is talk smack, and he swiftly gets knocked out his audacity.

When Alex wakes up, he finds himself in a bedroom, just a few feet from a 30-something woman by the name of Hailey. A woman who claims to be a nurse, and who stripped Alex before bringing him over to her private residence, dressing him in her “younger sister’s” clothes. This is incredibly suspicious, but Alex is a bit too gobsmacked by the busty woman getting so close to him to question her motives, and instead regales her with his story. Hailey, however, thinks that Alex is just some horndog teenager and tries to prove her point by flashing her bra. This frazzles Alex, but Hailey sees him as a “filthy boy” and offers him a proposition. If he listens to her will help him learn how to be a good man, one with the skills needed to impress the girl he loves.

All of which would seem innocuous, if not kind, if not a few little things. Hailey’s eyes shift from blue to a glowing magenta as she speaks, she’s topless, rubbing her tits in Alex’s face, and her terms are deliberately vague. Saying that Alex will ‘become hers’ if he does not ‘prove himself,’ and positioning him as a proxy for Hailey’s hope in men. Alex sheepishly nods along, both intimidated by the growing power dynamic between the two, and the fact that Hailey is, without question, some kind of witch who’s mentally manipulating Alex from moment one.

Chapter 2 begins as Alex returns home, where he meets up with his older brother Ken, age 20, his only living family member after his mother and father passed away some time ago. Ken’s trying to make the best of this situation, aiming balance being a guardian and a supportive yet irreverent big bro for his younger 18-year-old sibling, but it’s late and Alex just wants to get to go to bed.

After Alex falls asleep, he imagines himself having sex with Aubrey, being aggressive in his approach, eagerly whipping out his dick, before being met with the voice of Hailey, represented by magenta text. The voice mocks Alex for having such disgusting fantasies, claims that his sinful thoughts indicate that he is incapable of true love, and influences Alex’s body, robbing him of his penis. He panics as his dream morphs around him, running away, only for a dream apparition of Hailey to grab him, chiding him further and stating that such perversions must be punished. …Then she eats him, jamming his entire lower body into her mouth before crunching down, blood spurting as his head is enclosed in her hand, silencing any screams.

Following that magnificently ill dream, Alex wakes up in a panic and makes his way to school, where Brad had laid a trap for Alex. With oodles of ethereal blue NPCs wandering around, Brad forces Aubrey to recite a rumor that he made up. One that presents Alex as an aspiring rapist who wanted to plant a baby in Aubrey to make her his property. Alex calls this out as bullshit, but the crowd is inclined to believe that this guy— who, for context, is a primo fuckable twink— is a veritable sex pest.

We are never given the context to understand why Aubrey would uncritically recite this, why the school is so inclined to be against a kid like Alex, but it doesn’t really matter. What matters is that Alex is now being ostracized by. The rumor spreads like fire over a hay field and Aubrey, despite trying to quell the flames, is helpless to do anything about this. However, she still reassures Alex as much as she can, saying that she cares for him and wants to give their relationship a shot.

From this dangling thread of home, Alex starts off chapter 3 by returning to Hailey for her expert advice. …But before he can fully explain his problems, Hailey begins testing Alex’s love of Aubrey by stripping in front of him. She chides him for looking at this deliberate ploy for attention, and further tempts Alex by offering him sex while using her magenta eye witch powers. This dazes Alex, and in this state, Hailey takes it upon her to strip Alex, again, bind his genitals in a penis prison, and take a photo of his penis in order to blackmail him.

Yeah, at this point there’s no ambiguity about it. Hailey is not only a witch, but also a sexual predator who just forced herself on an unconscious person, abused his trust in her, and outright lied to him. All while maintaining the guise of an altruistic advisor who is helping him out of the goodness of her heard. If that sounds bad, then don’t worry, it gets worse!

After blackmailing him with the dick pic she just took, Hailey decides to ‘punish’ Alex further by forcing him to wear an overtly girly outfit. One with bows, pink, and a skirt, in order to better understand women by ‘stepping into their shoes.’ Except Alex is being dressed like a 10-year-old girl, not a woman, so that’s just another lie. Alex, still desperate for help, chooses to endure this cruel and unusual abuse, hoping that Hailey will help him, somehow, only for her Hailey to use her magenta eyes again, speaking directly to his soul. She calls him a disgusting boy who should not exist, who is worthless without her, not good enough for any girl, let alone Aubrey. She is nothing without him, for he is merely… her toy.

Tangent: Groom Me Like Da Bitch I Is
or Transgender Grooming Action

Before going much further, I feel that I need to make an aside about a niche Trans-Sexual Fantasy/Fiction subgenre.

My Toy is an example of what I have come to refer to as a TSF grooming story. A story where the protagonist’s personal desires and will are cast aside as someone gradually forces them into living as another gender through invasive and steady transformations that have similarities to a real world hormone-based gender transition. I’d say its three key signifiers are the dominant antagonist who forces their will onto the protagonist through subversion. A length sufficient to make the story feel like a multi-chapter journey, rather than something more brief. And a protagonist who maintains their sense of identity, albeit one molded by the grooming of the antagonist.

For example, I would consider Requited Change by MassManic to be a TSF grooming story, even if it is a bit more than that. Same with A Gray Day and Forever Summer by Moonlly (which I will cover when it’s completed.) But the classic Girl in My Dream would not be one. It is a gradual transformation story set over several weeks with an aggressive antagonist trying to shape the protagonist. However, the antagonist is a ghost trying to steal the protagonist’s body, and the protagonist needs to remain themself. …Shisutaabooi by Joe Six-Pack also misses the criteria because the protagonist gets mind wiped near the end.

This can be seen as a somewhat contentious genre, as the real-world topic of grooming is a serious one that has only been widely highlighted in the past few years. …And there have been a deluge of allegations that transgender people are either groomers trying to dupe children into transitioning or were themselves duped into transitioning. It’s baseless fearmongering that comes from a place of bad faith and hatred. A myth spun by those who benefit from a heteronormative, cisgender, patriarchal status quo, all to instill panic in the bigoted and gullible via repackaged ‘think of the children’ narratives. The real groomers in society tend to be those with the most power, and anybody who thinks that trans people have any meaningful power are operating on bizarro logic.

Personally, I operate under the idea that TSF is, predominantly, a work of fantasy, and that dark or more uncomfortable elements should be considered fair game so long as one handles the subject well. And if they don’t, well, then criticize it, try to do better if you’re a creator, and push for more mindful approaches to be taken in future works.

There is a discussion to be had about how writers should approach or explore certain topics. How to handle them with grace, and how certain topics, like a young person falling in love with their platonic caretaker who is 15 years their senior. But it’s very rare to find a pro-grooming story in this genre, as the genre is lousy with dark endings, antagonists who are pieces of shit, and characters being overtly abused.

For a work to be problematic or hateful it is important to analyze what it is saying, what its themes and lessons are, what kind of tone it is setting, what is the story saying about its subject matter. What the reader is supposed to take away from it. I’d say that these are skills most people should have learned in high school English class… but I know that most didn’t. At least it’s never too late to learn and be better!

So with that in mind, let’s continue with the story, and see what it’s trying to say with Hailey the groomer witch and her latest victim.

Part 2: Disgusting Boys Make The Best Girls

Resuming at chapter 4, after his second run-in with Hailey, and a lesson in how to use makeup, Alex is left mulling over what happened to him. He correctly identifies Hailey as a witch for the mental manipulation he is noticing, but this is mental manipulation, and Alex is still desperate for any woman’s advice in being good enough for Aubrey. It’s irrational, but people are very easy to lead astray from their best interests in real life, and when magic is thrown in, it’s a damn cakewalk.

We then see signs of this manipulation at school the following day, where Alex is greeted by Brad, and he thinks back to what Hailey told him. That if Brad tries to start trouble, ask him about his life. It’s a conversational wildcard that leaves Brad unsure how to react, and Aubrey comes in to end the conversation before it can start, declaring to the school that Brad lied. This… somehow causes the rumors to die down. I guess this is meant to show how fickle and short-lived high school gossip can be. But it reads like the writer realized they were done with a conflict and chose to end it in the most prompt manner possible. Kind of makes you wonder why the conflict was needed, but whatever.

Alex views this as a sign that Hailey’s ‘training’ is working, so he heads back to her home the next day, asking for her help in preparing for a date. Hailey agrees, without any sexual assault she makes him look… one of the most androgynous people ever. With a cleaned up hairstyle that is long for a man but short for a woman, a form-fitting sweater that shows off a thin stomach and the impression of breasts, and white pants that accentuate the curves of Alex’s butt. Alex thinks this looks off, but Hailey urges him that it isn’t, before bidding him farewell and revealing to the audience her ultimate goal with this whole sorted affair. To condition Alex into being a replacement for her late daughter, Ariel.

…Which is remarkably similar to the justification used by the grooming antagonist from Moonlly’s Forever Summer. A woman who lost her daughter through unclear means and who tries to groom a young man into being her replacement daughter. They’re both Koikatsu TSF creators, so there’s a good chance they know each other, but I find it curious that they would both choose to pursue the surrogate daughter justification. Maybe it’s just a staple of the genre…

The following day, Alex heads out for his date with Aubrey and gets hit on by some womanizer while he waits, calling him “hot as fuck.” Which is just kind of funny, as Alex is dressed like a 45-year-old woman going to her office job. (Or me when I go to the office, same difference.) He tries to explain the situation as Aubrey comes onto the scene, and when the guy blows up at the two of them for not wanting to suck him off, Alex wisely just walks away.

With the date beginning in earnest, Aubrey compliments Alex for his restraint there and opens up to him, explaining her philosophy on life. That one should be consumed by indecision. That people need to take action, not dwell on hypotheticals, and focus on living their life to the fullest. Alex agrees with this philosophy, and as Aubrey opens herself up to him, he does the same, saying that he won’t doubt himself again, and confesses his love for her. Aubrey hesitates before reciprocating the feelings, and following this declaration, the two go to make the most of their night together, hitting up all the cliché date spots.

This is all a very consolidated scene— the last two paragraphs happen across four pages— and the confessions of the characters here feels very impulsive. Like the creator wants to fast-track them into a relationship, or they have a history the reader is not privy to. The reader is not given the details need to understand how these characters function as a couple and what specifically they like about each other. The why to their love. I understand that the length must be reasonable and pacing must be preserved, but this date just flies by.

Regardless, the date goes well, Alex believes Hailey’s advice helped him out, and he felt like a brand new man with her. …Even if his masculinity is in question at the moment. It all concludes with Alex walking Aubrey back home, the two sharing a hug, only for Aubrey to feel the penis prison through Alex’s pants. She goes to investigate this with her hands, only for Alex, conditioned to be abstain from disgusting sexual activities, to decline her request to come inside and show off his dick. He thinks that it’s supposed to be a test of some sort, when I would be more nervous about explaining the penis cage. Most people who own one are into kinky shit or are deeply religious… and like the idea of infinite nonstop gooning.

Starting off chapter 5— chapters aren’t going to get any less dense from here on out— Alex goes home to Ken, who playfully teases his little bro for his success, praising his restraint and for snagging such a ‘big score.’ To explain what he means, Ken then pulls out his clipart smartphone and reveals that Aubrey is a super successful streamer who has over 4.8 million subscribers on YouTube. …Which is where I need to hold up my hands and ask WHAT?

Aubrey is 18-years-old, still attending high school, yet she managed to foster a following that eclipses the vast majority of successful streamers? I’m not saying that young super successful streamers don’t exist— they do— but they are less than one in a million. This fact, the idea that Aubrey has obligations, has sponsors, and is assuredly making money off of this, it barely comes up again. This is the type of scene that you get when a writer lacks editorial oversight, or when storyline ideas are dropped as a work goes on and shifts in different directions than originally intended. It’s something a writer should cut when editing a story before publishing it to the broader world. But in this go-go world of instant publication, nobody has time for that!

This factoid is, somehow, news to Alex, which really raises questions about the two’s relationship. Alex’s undying love of Aubrey is at the center of the story, and loving someone necessitates knowing someone. Otherwise, you just love the idea of someone. Up until this point, it seems like they have been long-time acquaintances, yet if Alex does not know this about Aubrey, what does he know about her? Why does he like her? What does this quirky trait add to the story? Because it sure seems to take a few things away.

Anyway, Alex has another erotic fantasy dream, but this one is vore free and ends with Alex musing over his hatred of his chastity cage. He goes to Hailey in hopes of ending their engagement, only for Hailey, based on nothing but her own misandry, insists that Alex must have been staring at Aubrey’s chest during the date. As ‘punishment,’ Hailey has Alex crossdress once again, this time into something showy, adorning him with enough makeup and pizzazz to make him pass as a cute girl. Alex is unsettled by how good he looks, but before he can think of resisting, Hailey forces him to go out to a maid café that she frequents.

This marks the first time Alex has presented as female in public, and the fear of getting caught turns him into a wet sack of nerves. He tries to maintain as low a profile as possible, speaking as little as possible, though he is able to pass due to his ‘surprisingly good’ girl’s voice. Yeah, this is a common excuse in forced feminization stories like this. Real voice training typically takes years— I did it for about three— and while an instant passing voice is unrealistic… it also makes for a better, more expedient story.

After the meal, Hailey pointedly sends Alex to pay for the meal, where he encounters a scumbag in line who, naturally views him as a girl and tries to take advantage of him. Paying for his meal, acting like he is now entitled to Alex, and putting his hands on him. Despite Alex having once been prone to more violent encounters, he has been made too passive to fight back, merely speaking and calling for Hailey’s help as this man forces himself on him.

Fortunately, the wannabe Casanova simmers down and lets Alex go, but this encounter still leaves Alex feeling objectified, demoralized, and inclined to disregard Hailey’s lessons. Under her teachings, he had no tools to fend off a guy like this, but he thinks that using his fists would have caused this guy to back off. …Even though Alex probably only weighs 45 kilograms based on how short and scrawny he is. And a 45 kilo dude isn’t going to win any fights unless he fights dirty.

Moving into chapter 6, the perspective shifts over to Aubrey, who is reflecting on her date with Alex, alongside her girlfriend of several years. A purple-haired girl named Lisa, who was a background character at the maid café. Despite that that profession implies, Lisa’s an independent and standoffish sort of person who is detached to most things that don’t interest her, but loyal to those close to her.

They’re chatting on Aubrey’s bed over Ken’s performance last night, and Lisa is none too impressed. She’s convinced that Alex is gay, that Aubrey should probably drop this relationship, and insists that she doesn’t need a man in her life when she has a loving girlfriend like her. It’s not really a convincing argument, but an understandable one. Lisa is a teenage lesbian who has an… understandable distrust of men, and is reasonably attached to her bisexual über successful streamer GF. However, Lisa also recognizes that Aubrey’s happiness is more important than her feelings, and if she has a genuine love of Alex, she won’t get in the way.

The following day, Alex returns to school, his hair back to normal and masculinity mostly restored. But before he can even walk into the building, he is accosted by Brad for daring to date his woman-object. Alex decides to just walk away— a good call, as they are in a public place— but he makes the mistake of provoking Brad by saying he will tell a teacher on him. Brad gets pissed, Alex replies with snark, and while Brad is the aggressor, Alex chooses to grab Brad’s arm and fling him down to the ground.

**Okay, maybe Alex has some strength after all!**

Naturally, this scuffle attracts attention from the school and both Brad and Alex are sent to the principal office, where they are suspended for two weeks. I’d say something about the school’s lack of supervision over the front entrance, but I don’t think there are any teachers at this school in the first place. Alex runs into Aubrey as he walks out of school, with her promising to head over to his place, but Alex is too pissed at himself to find solace in that promise. After all, Hailey’s conditioning has led him to consider himself little more than a disgusting boy, and one still unworthy of the affection of a woman like Aubrey.

As this happens, Hailey is at Alex’s house, talking to Ken about Alex’s actions. She presents herself as a social worker with the school, and spins a yarn about sending Ken away to a week-long retreat to improve his emotional control. Ken agrees to this, and when Alex comes walking in after school, he sits him down, and tells him he needs to leave for this retreat. Alex tries to share his perspective on the matter, but Ken has put his trust in authority over family, and allows his brother to be taken away by Hailey. Who, of course, goes on about how Alex failed her test and how he only has one more chance at redemption. Not because Alex agreed to any test. He didn’t. But because Hailey knows how to manipulate people.

Tangent Pretty: Gettin’ Pedantic About The Presentation!

Before getting into the second third of the story, I want to pause and discuss the presentation. As a Koikatsu comic, naturally most visual assets are limited by the in-game character creators and environments. While these have been expanded over the years by a dedicated niche community, Koikatsu comics run into an issue where the presentation is nearly identical to the other. Some use custom models, expressions, modifications, and a lot of work in post where they enhance the image, but you can peg a Koikatsu comic from a glance. Either from the characters or from environments that are repeated across countless comics.

Is it jarring to see the same locales repeated across every Koikatsu work? Yes, but I find that to be weirdly charming, like a community theater repurposing the same sets and costumes for different productions. It is a creator making use of the assets they have. I admire the gumption of most Koikatsu creators… but I am still amazed that there is not an Unreal or Unity based equivalent to Koikatsu at this point. The versatility of both engines, along with their asset stores, could greatly expand the possibilities of what creators like Maideneir could achieve.

And she does achieve a lot. The posing, effects, angles, custom assets, character outfits, transformations, and so forth are all quality stuff. She understands how to use the 3D environment and camera given to her, crafts some well composed scenes, and the effects done in post can be quite nice. She knows how to use these tools, and she is improving over time, implementing more visually striking techniques as she gets a better handle on her tools. However, it’s the broader details where I feel the presentation falters.

A Gray Day was in my preferred presentation for Koikatsu comic, where every page is a single 16:9 panel. This approach that absolves the creator from the burden of needing to arrange a page of unique panels, and prevents things from ever being too cluttered or difficult to read. With ‘traditional’ Koikatsu comics, the creators need to balance multiple smaller images in a single page, account for black and white space, and balance the amount of information while generally confiding it into panels. This offers more opportunities for sequential storytelling and dynamic layouts, but I don’t think that Maideneir really grasped that here.

**This is from one of the most ambitious layouts in the early comic.**

Certain pages make very poor use of black space between panels. Nearly every panel is a rectangle, which strongly limits how dynamic the presentation can be. Pages can feel a bit too jam-packed with details, as if they were trying to convey as much information as possible, except for when they are full-page spreads. And there appears to be some sort of scaling issue with certain panels, making characters look wider or taller than they should. It’s fine at worse, and I respect Maideneir’s desire to create a more traditional comic, but I would rather she stuck with the full screen export approach. It’s easier to read on a screen of any size, easier to produce, and means I barely need to edit anything when getting images for a showcase.

Next, there is the subject of font choice, something I’m usually indifferent towards. So long as it is readable, I am fine with even something like Arial as a comic font— which is what Maideneir used previously in A Gray Day. However, when she was working on the first version of The Satin War, she wound up switching over to Georgia. An old man Serif font that I dislike for many reasons, and it just is not good for comics. Characters are less defined and readable, the Serif accents just muddy the visual details of the font, and certain parts of fonts are so thin that they become difficult to read when zoomed out.

Maideneir also subscribes to the school of character specific font colors, which I am generally a fan of. However, due to the semi-transparent nature of dialogue balloons, and some bright font choices, it can be difficult to read at times, even when zoomed in.

Oh, and her PDF exports still leave something to be desired. Much like with the PDFs of A Gray Day, they look grainy and cheap, like you found them washed up on the beach. The full quality PNGs are once again locked behind her Patreon, but rather than just have a convenient zip drive people can download, they need to be manually saved. I did an experiment to see how much a full quality PDF version would be, using the free PDF editor, PDF24, and the results, while not quite as crisp as the PNGs, look pretty damn good. Maideneir’s PDF for the whole series is only 61 MB, while mine is 400 MB. That could be an issue depending on the platform, but both DeviantArt and Patreon are generous with their upload limits, so she could easily produce better PDFs.

**Look at these artifacts! It looks UGLY!**

I don’t know if this is a deliberate way to bolster subscriptions, but I think it’s crummy to give people such low quality versions of one’s work, because it makes for an objectively worse reading experience. Which in turn makes it harder to garner a fanbase and spread one’s works around.

Sorry, sorry, this is a big gripe of mine, because image quality preservation is so important. Back to the comic!

Part 3: This Bitch-Witch Gonna Fuck The Man Outta You!

Chapter 7 picks up right after Hailey abducted Alex from his home under the guise of being a school social worker. …Which is something I need to address, as it is either another deliberate lie from Hailey or another element that Maideneir fumbled. Hailey originally introduced herself as a nurse, says that is a lie here, but insists that she is an actual social worker. Except… I don’t believe that. We never actually see her go to work at the school. She routinely is absent from her supposed workplace during the story, never expressing concern about her job.

There is no way that Alex, a kid who lost both his parents, would not be introduced to the school social worker. I know that some characters do refer to Hailey as the social worker, but I think that is just some cover she is using while never actually showing up to work. If I were to guess, she probably just ‘convinced’ the principal she works her and uses this position as an excuse to prowls the senior year class for freshly legal majors who she can groom-rape into sweet little girls.

Tangent aside, Hailey explains that everything that’s happened to Alex so far has been part of her plan. After finding Alex after his altercation with Brad in chapter 1, she decided to make Alex her latest victim, but needed to do a little social engineering to break his spirit. She located and blackmailed Brad to keep pressuring Alex, effectively scripting every encounter. She also convinced the principal— likely with her witch powers— to have Alex attend a week-long retreat. …Except she was never going to send Alex on a retreat. Oh no. Instead, Hailey locks Alex up into her home for the next week, claiming that he is now her property. And what does she do to him during this week? Well, what doesn’t she do to him?

Hailey orders Alex to shower and shave his entire body. She frees his penis from the chastity case only to crush it in her hands as it dares to get erect for the first time in days. She demands that he call her Mistress. Deems him to be her sissy slave. And starts referring to him by her daughter’s name, Ariel. I’d call this a mask-off moment, but she wasn’t wearing a mask before. Hailey has always been an abuser, and is just escalating things as she enters her Witch-Bitch mode, and what follows is a week-long tour de force of rampant abuse from Hailey.

I don’t even want to say half of the shit she does, as it is so relentless and cruel, showing blatant disdain and disregard for Alex’s humanity from moment one. All of which is made worse by the regular affirmations that Alex is a good girl, and promising to do nice things for him. Alex wants to fight back, but he’s overpowered in every way, and has been conditioned to think that he is a fundamentally bad person. That the only one who can fix him is Hailey, and that while her methods may be a violation of human rights, maybe she really knows what’s best for him.

And that… that is something that I always struggle to understand when constructing a cruel antagonist. I tend to present cruelty in its more or most overt forms. With antagonists who are honest and transparent about their malicious intentions and desire to hurt people, unwilling to hide their disdain behind layers of euphemisms or fallacies. Or to provide a clear example, my latest novel opens up with a group of Klansmen sacrificially executing a pregnant Black teenager whom they previously tortured, severing all her limbs and burning her face. Literally the most evil thing I could possibly think of. Yet Hailey, this aggressive justified groomer rapist managed to get me more riled up and angry than characters I wrote to be the worst people imaginable.

Hailey is an awful person— absolutely fucking evil— but it is not a prima facia evil of someone who eagerly indulges in cruel acts without filter. It is evil with a thin layer of plausible deniability. The justification that hurting people is okay if there is an agreement, regardless of understanding. That punishment can be both cruel and unusual if it ‘works’ by the standards of they who deals the punishment. That the abuser is virtuous and justified, because their actions make them happy, even as they are directly harming others. It is not an honest evil, it is a dishonest evil. An evil clouded by subtle gestures of kindness, shades of ambiguity, and even some degree of realism. In real life, abuse is a thing that is constantly justified, both by the abuser and the abused, even if the facts should be transparent to all parties involved. But no matter the justification, abuse is abuse, and those who willfully and consistently enact it upon others are simply monsters in the shape of a human.

You might think I’m being a bit hard on Hailey, but she truly spends the next week doing nothing beyond indulging herself in the act of torment. She rams a butt plug into him to “train [Alex’s] ass pussy.” She forces him into a revealing purple one piece swimsuit to make him feel more emasculated. Forces him to apply makeup and ‘become a pretty girl’, only to reward him with a mighty jolt to his anus. Demands that he train his nipples to be more tender. And when faced with a slight opposition, she whips out the strap-on and starts ravaging his ass for hours at a time.

When this is all over, Alex is not even able to muster hatred for Hailey. His mind has been so sullied by her powers, his body has been fatigued by her stream of sexual assault, and spirit has been shattered. He is in such a dismal state that all he can do is ask God what he did to deserve this. He wants to leave, to resist, but her voice is embedded deep into his head, steadily overpowering his own as his own memory slowly fades away. Alex begins to forget Hailey’s name, begins begging for an anal pounding, and as his body slowly starts to morph through the power of… sexual magic, he is left oblivious to the changes. He thinks his hair has always been this long, that his features were always this soft, and that his chest was so puffy. He even forgets his own name, thinking that he has always been Ariel. …Specifically, a boy named Ariel.

No matter what Hailey does to Alex— and she does a lot— he continues to cling onto his gender. He refuses to accept that he is a girl no matter how much grooming and mental manipulation Hailey does. …And I think this creative decision is brilliant. More important than his autonomy, more important than his name, more important than anything, is Alex’s gender. It is the cornerstone of his being, the foundation of his identity, and no matter how much those around him force him, no matter how much they fuck him into being something he’s not, he holds onto this truth. That he is a man!

If there is any lesson to be gleaned from My Toy, it’s that. That you cannot force someone to change their gender, that it is something they determine on their own. Which might seem a bid odd for a cisgender character, but Maideneir is a transgender woman, and I can see the parallels she is trying to make here. To be trans is to look at society as it incessantly tries to shovel people into a role from birth and say no. To deny those who try to impose identity on them and resist, deep down, and hold out on an opportunity to be who they truly are.

For all the recent synthetic hate-rich hubbub about children being groomed by ‘freaks’, the fact is that children are groomed by just about everybody in their lives. By their parents, by their communities, by their teachers, all trying to make them functioning members of society. Children do not become men and women of their own fruition, they are groomed into those two roles. And if they oppose this process, they’re fucked back into line. Do this, don’t do that, wear this, but never that, be like them, learn to hate what they represent, play for your side, and denounce solidarity.

Gender is something to be found through one’s own experience and journey. While it is impossible to go through life without being influenced by others, it is vital for the wellbeing of humanity that people be allowed to discover themselves. That they have the opportunity to reject the labels imposed on them, and become fully fledged people. Yet so many are against that idea, as it represents a change, a shift in the broader world, and the ‘order’ that has always existed in the manipulated history many people choose to remember.

Or to strip aside the societal commentary, Maideneir somehow managed to tell an über-sexual forced feminization grooming story with a cisgender protagonist… and still make its core message unambiguously trans as hell.

…Now, where was I in the story? Right, finishing up with Alex’s tenure as Hailey’s sissy slave. By day six, Alex has been dramatically pacified by Hailey’s mind control and abuse. To celebrate this milestone, Hailey gussies up Alex in a pink dress and excessive makeup for another outing to the maid café. Except this time Alex is too far gone to even think about resisting, his mental voice suppressed by the words of Hailey in his mind. He thinks that this is all normal for him. Though, there is one person who thinks this is off, Lisa. As Alex goes to pay for his meal, Lisa stares at him before saying that he reminds her of Alex.

Hearing his own name is enough to lay a seed of doubt in Alex’s mind. He still thinks himself to be Ariel, though the part of him who is resisting this all seems to be getting louder after hearing this. When Hailey learns about this, she doubles down on her abuse, trying to further condition Alex into her desired role. Yet, it is still not enough. Even when sucking Hailey’s strap-on, he still insists that he is a boy, that he is still excited to become a good man so he can finally have sex with Aubrey. The conditioning is nearly complete, but it’s still not quite there.

Before Alex can be sent home in this transformed state, there is a parallel story that I have been putting aside until now. Aubrey goes to visit Alex after school like she promised, but is instead met with Ken, who explains that that Hailey took Alex away. Aubrey blames herself for getting Alex into this situation, but Ken tries to comfort her and, in return, Aubrey feels that she needs to do something for him. She wants to be an ear to rest his worries on and a friend for him to talk to. It’s an odd turn of events, as I’d imagine that Aubrey is busy with her job as a streamer or general school work. Yet she is determined to become Ken’s friend in this time of need and rapidly grows closer to him. Ken, in turn, opens up to Aubrey about his family’s history, how important this home is to them, and their hopes that Alex will come back stronger and better than ever before.

Then, right as the two are sharing a tender moment together, Aubrey sees that this place has a hot tub and jumps off the railing of the porch, nearly dying in the process. I know this is meant to make her seem playful and impulsive, but it makes her seem more psychotic than anything. Not unlike the psychotic architect who designed their home this way. Seriously, just look at this. I don’t know anything about hot tub laws in American Nihon, but that ain’t up to code, I can tell you that for certain.

This whole situation leaves Ken both frazzled and smitten. He knows that Aubrey is Alex’s girlfriend, but he finds her energy, compassion, and impulsiveness attractive. He wants to be a strong responsible brother and caretaker, but he also is lonely without Alex and wants someone to bond with. At first, he tries to keep Aubrey at bay. …But four days later, they’re chilling together in a hot tub. Both worried about Alex, but more than happy just being together… as friends.

Plot threads coalesce at the start of chapter 10, where Hailey finally sends Alex back home. She dresses him up in an androgynous outfit, gives him a chest binder to hide his blossoming bosoms, tells him to speak in a facsimile of his old voice. Oh, and that people weirdly like to call him Alex, not his ‘real name’ of Ariel. He’s so mentally manipulated that he just rolls with it, but this guise lasts all of fifteen seconds though, as both Aubrey and Ken think that Alex looks a lot more girlish than they remember him being. However, they brush this off after Hailey’s insistence, happy to have their Alex back. With Aubrey being particularly excited to spend some alone time with the boy, hoping to progress their relationship to the next level.

…Except Alex’s mind is so flooded with misandrist mind control that even when Aubrey takes off her top and starts making out with him, Hailey’s voice chides him for allowing this. Yes, allowing a woman, of her own free will, to lovingly embrace him. The voice is too powerful for Alex to resist, and despite this being his literal dream come true, he is forced to push Aubrey away.

Rejected, Aubrey invites Lisa over for another lesbian chat and fuck sesh with Lisa, who tries to push Aubrey away from men yet again. Informing her that men have gross penises that they make girls suck, that she needs to be careful around them, and even unassuming men can be into the freakiest shit. …Actually, Aubrey in this scene seems deeply ignorant about sex in general, yet it ends with her scissoring Lisa, and Aubrey is still supposed to be a popular streamer. I could buy that she is a sheltered little bisexual who only knows about sapphic delights, but she’s so popular that she would probably get sent at least 21,583 rape threats every year.

The following morning, Alex heads off to school… having completely forgotten that he has a two-week suspension, and is still not allowed on campus. So he sulks at the school entrance where he runs into Aubrey yet again and is re-introduced to Lisa. After staring at him for a second, she concludes that Alex is definitely the ‘girl’ that she saw two days ago, and I just love how blunt she is about it. Lisa is the type of character who is written with the divine ability to perceive things the way they are. She can see through facades others can’t, only entertains crazy notions for the benefit of those around her, and is quick to take action when things are amiss. She’s a minor character in the grand scheme of things, but her decisiveness and conviction make her an excellent addition to an otherwise mostly oblivious cast.

Alex tries to cover himself by claiming the girl Lisa saw was actually his female cousin, ‘Allison.’ Lisa knows this is a bald-faced lie, but she entertains the idea, knowing fully well that she’ll be proven right. While Aubrey is just happy for the opportunity to learn more about Alex’s family, as she already liked his brother so much.

This caps off chapter 10, but chapter 11 is where things start getting… okay, they’re already crazy, it gets crazier, I promise!

Part 4: The Archduchess of The Society for Cutting Up Men

After promising to introduce ‘Allison’ to Aubrey and Lisa, Alex runs over to Hailey for help in maintaining this facade, because Alex has been trained to be co-dependent on Hailey. Before helping him however, Hailey uses this as another excuse to abuse Alex. She forces him to strip and beg, before berating him, saying that he is a GIRL, that he is HERS, and that all Alex’s affection toward Aubrey is being driven by his lust. Hailey is going in for the kill, trying to finish Alex’s transformation, trying to make him crack and become her precious little toy. …But Alex doesn’t break. He merely affirms what he has been telling Hailey all this time. That he is genuinely in love with Aubrey and, despite whatever she may think, he hasn’t so much as attempted doing anything sexual with Aubrey.

To emphasize, these types of conversations are nothing new. Alex has explained his situation and Hailey has heard him, she’s just never believed him… until now. After so much mental and physical alteration, Alex is still saying things like this. Hailey must have been convinced that he was just lying before now, and as she processes his words, accepts them as the truth… she’s horrified. She realizes that Alex was just some innocent kid who just wanted some dating advice. In the span of a few panels, Hailey pulls a complete 180, immediately tries to undo her mental conditioning, and begins helping Alex in earnest for the first time since she met him.

…So, this sucks.

Narratively, the idea of an antagonist as malicious as Hailey undergoing realizing she is a bad person who did bad things is… achievable. However, it would require character development, an arc, her coming to terms with her ways, realizing that grooming and destroying the psyche of people is wrong. She would need to have a crisis. There would need to be the introduction of new information. However, everything Alex told her here is a variant of things he said in the past. She knows Alex refrained from going into Aubrey’s house when he could have gotten laid. She deliberately arranged a scenario where Alex would get suspended from school. She forced him to spill his heart out and speak nothing but the truth after raping him for days at a time. She fucked with his head so thoroughly that he thinks his name is supposed to be Ariel, her ‘missing’ daughter’s name.

Actually, I didn’t emphasize this earlier, but fucked in the head do you have to be to do all of this shit to somebody while calling them by your ‘missing’ daughter’s name? I know some of the smallest, most pathetic men to ever breathe air have done that while paying children half their age to grind on their dicks while sucking on a cum-coated pacifier, but they know they are motherfuckers. They love that they are motherfuckers. Hailey though? She didn’t just hit up a working girl, leave her with some drunken sperm gushing in her ovulating uterus, jam two Franklins up their ass, and leave. She mindfucked an 18-year-old for a week straight, and now she thinks she is primed for a redemption arc? No. No ma’am. You are scum! (Not to be confused with S.C.U.M.)

However, I think I know why Maideneir chose to have this… character shift. She probably didn’t like how one of the central main characters was this villain, and sought to redeem her. And I think you can do that. But you cannot have her go from actively sexually abusing her victim to going ‘holy shit, I’m a fucking monster’ in the span of two pages. Characters are defined by their actions, and there is practically no amount of good that Hailey can do to make up for the abuses she put Alex through. She is a bad person, and whatever reason she can give does not change that fact.

After decking out Alex in some short pigtails, a tank top, and booty shorts, Hailey chides herself for never actually listening to Alex until now, showing remorse for her actions, before thinking back to how she became a witch. 12 years ago, Hailey was raising her daughter, Ariel, and trying to maintain a pleasant relationship with her unnamed husband. However, her husband was a comically hateful and bitter man, one who viewed taking family photos with his hot wife and adorable daughter as “a waste of time and money.”

Hailey claims that he physically beat her and Ariel, emotionally abused him, and one day he just left, taking Ariel with him. Hailey fell into a spiral of depression afterward, leaving her job, spending every cent she had trying to find her husband and daughter, until she met with a woman named Gianna. Gianna saw that Hailey had been wronged by a man, and offered her the power to make sure no man ever hurt her again. This power manifested in her magenta eyes— or rather, Demon Eyes— which grant her the power to reshape the minds and bodies of men.

More specifically, to strip them of their ‘male essence’ and leaving behind purer, happier, and better women in their place. After being abused by her husband, she despised all men, and saw her actions as beneficial, as just, despite how cruel the methods may be. However… in her decade of doing this, she did not think that maybe #NotAllMen are burgeoning rapists who think with their dick first and brain second. (You can argue that’s the case for most, or too many men, but to claim all of them are like that is just moronic.)

Or in other words, Hailey was abused by a man, someone took advantage of her in this hurt state and recruited her to be part of a sect of demonic radical feminists. …One that was overtly pro-trans women, yet clearly anti-trans men, meaning that they both are and are not TERFs. …And while many late 20th century radical feminists were sex negative, this group views sex as a weapon to be used and appropriated by women in order to turn men into women.

Now, I’m not breaking this down because I want to criticize this decision or think that this was a bad call. Quite the contrary. For an antagonist in a TSF story, this is a sick as hell concept. The kind that makes me wish that I had the time and bandwidth needed to do actual research and write a short story exploring this concept. Because not only are these ideas golden, they are a great example of why I think TSF is such a versatile genre. Because not only are gender and the physical body two of the most important things to a human and within human society, but you can get extra fancy by incorporating so many real-ass academic fields of study. Psychology, feminism, philosophy, the entire sloshy bucket of the humanities, all thrown into a cauldron of magical whatsit and marinated into something wild.

God, we really need more TSF novels written by gender studies majors who also love kinky porn and existential horror. …And more TSF written by people of different backgrounds, just in general.

While Hailey is off trying to find the woman who recruited her into The Sisterhood of Forced Feminization, Alex runs off to meet with Aubrey and Lisa. Lisa immediately clocks Alex through his frankly awful disguise, but Aubrey insists on giving ‘Allison’ a chance as they head out to the mall for a night of fun. Hitting up a boba tea place, watching a “chick flick”, and blowing all his money on clothes. He enjoys it, but Alex did spend a week being conditioned to enjoy things like this, and if there was any doubt of his gender, he runs into the men’s room without a second thought. Lisa, wanting to get this over with, follows him in there.

Lisa approaches Alex thinking that he is just a liar with a kink, but being the sensible one, she actually lets Alex talk and explain himself. She pretty quickly gathers that Hailey has been grooming Alex and giving him hormones, which is the most logical conclusion. She doesn’t know how long this has been going on! Lisa is also cool enough to insist that she help Alex with his Hailey situation tomorrow.

However, as Alex goes to bed the following night, he starts to develop more rapid changes. Even without Hailey’s direct involvement, the magic is in his system, and unless she does something soon, Alex’s body will continue to become more feminine by the day. Growing hair, losing inches of height, and developing breasts, all before reaching the logical endpoint. And with her influence still strongly wrapped around him, Alex is struggling to even see these changes for himself. Someone needs to do something to help him, and pronto.

Chapter 12 opens with Hailey tracking down Gianna… though, that’s something of a misnomer. Gianna’s actually in the same shop at the same mall, and looks the same as she did a decade ago. A busty silver-haired woman with stark yellow eyes who I initially thought it meant to look older, within the parameters of Koikatsu, but I think that she’s just meant to be unaging and with white hair.

Anyway, Hailey is prompt to say she needs to undo a transformation, but Gianna is an all-caps RADICAL Feminist who thinks that all men deserve to be changed. (Which weirdly makes being a woman sound like a punishment.) She does not believe any exceptions can exist, and is particularly fond of the energy she has been feeding off of Alex over the past two weeks. Hailey tries to nudge her to her side, but it only takes a minute before Gianna goes the nuclear option, using her demon powers to… possess Hailey!

YES!

We are finally at the point where fantastical transformations start happening! Don’t get me wrong, I was loving this story, despite some hiccups, so far. But I just adore when there’s a pop off in a transformation story like this. When the rules of reality are cracked, if not shattered, and the chaos is allowed to roam freely. We are past the grooming, and have entered something… exciting!

Back at school, Lisa snuck Alex in so she could examine him in a female restroom, and she is freaking out at how different he looks. While there, Aubrey knocks on the door, chatting with her and letting it slip that the two are long-term girlfriends. Alex has a lot of things going on, but he only went through this so he could be with Aubrey, and he is quick to tell Lisa that he’s not going to just give up on Aubrey like this. The two start an argument in the restroom, but before things can get spicy, the saturation fades and the door opens to reveal Gianna possessing Hailey. Her eyes are dark and vacant, her voice is icy and foreboding, and to anybody with eyes, she is not a true human.

Despite arguing with Alex just a moment ago, Lisa stands up to protect him, ready to beat this monster with her fists, because she’s hardcore like that! She launches a straight punch aimed as Gianna’s jaw, but Gianna grabs her arm and breaks it with a single blow. Lisa crumbles, but before she can fall, Gianna grabs her by the throat, clenching her borrowed hand as tightly as she could, aiming to kill this distraction and get what she came for.

Alex finds the conviction to stand. He has the wherewithal and opportunity to leave, yet he cannot let someone die like this, so he surrenders. He allows Gianna to take him away, to become her toy, and reassures himself that he will, somehow, some way, resist. That despite the dire circumstances he has found himself in, he will get the girl of his dreams and get back to normal. It’s blind optimism in the face of adversity, but at this point, there isn’t much else Alex can do.

Gianna then escorts Alex into her and Hailey’s secret hideout. An underground love hotel room complete with prison bars— a literal sex dungeon. These, she dresses Alex in a frilly magical girl esque outfit and reveals to him her master plan. Gianna is a succubus, a full-blown demon. She stole Hailey’s body both to keep her from ruining her plan, but also for a more… practical purpose. As a succubus, she cannot give birth to humans, and in order to extract every last morsel of Alex’s essence, she needs a functional womb. Not to carry their seed or absorb every last bit of Alex’s masculinity that way. Oh no. Instead… she intends to unbirth him.

Gianna plans on draining Alex of his male essence until he regresses to a child, then a baby, then an embryo, and finally a zygote, where he shall be reborn as a girl.

OH.

FUCK.

YES!

Now this is the type of deranged out-of-the-box thinking that I just adore seeing in the world of TF (Transformation Fantasy). A flavor of cruelty that is beyond the realm of acceptable thought, but also has a symbolic element to it. A regression that renders someone less than human only to be born anew, stripping away their life, their family, and robbing them of their very gender as they are forced to become someone new. A true rebirth as a new person that is ushered in not with death, but an un-life. To Alex, this is the most horrific thing imaginable, denying him even the dignity of dying as himself, but Gianna views this as necessary. Either because she really does not think that much of humans, or because she herself is a groomer who convinced herself that reshaping people in her own image is good. …Which I guess would be part of the demon moral code.

Ken begs Gianna to stop this, to let him continue to exist, but Alex is such a pure and truly innocent boy that his soul will fulfill her more than dozens of lesser men, and she cannot justify letting this one go. He wants to fight back, but he is just a human against a demon, and Hailey’s mental manipulation still has a hold on his ability to reason. Fear leads him to pass out, and he awakens with the body of a 12-year-old. He’s already a third of the way there to his decline, and it is now only a matter of time before the transformation will be complete. Before Alex gets unbirthed!

Part 5: To Boldly Go Into The Uterus of Despair

Chapter 13 opens on Ken, Aubrey, and Lisa reconvening in the hospital, where Maideneir accidentally put Lisa in her casual clothes, rather than her school uniform or a hospital gown. Whoops. Yeah, there are a few similarly obvious errors throughout this comic, from text that’s the wrong color to sentences that omit a vital word like ‘not’. The sort of things that happen when you edit things yourself and try to put them out biweekly.

Anyway, Lisa informed Aubrey about what was happening, Aubrey informed Ken, and the three— or rather Aubrey and Ken, as Lisa is out cold— promise to do everything they can to save Alex. They know they are in over their heads, but it’s nice to see them both believe this crazy story without any hesitation. They know that shit is serious, and no matter how absurd it sounds, they are willing to do what it takes to get their boy back!

Meanwhile, Alex has been alone for several hours when Gianna, still possessing Hailey, ventures in with some college football jock under her spell, both of their eyes radiating magenta. …Which I think means Gianna is using Hailey’s powers along with her body, which are an extension of Gianna’s powers, so does that mean— you know what, forget it. Point is, Gianna wants to demonstrate her powers before Alex as she strips this man of all he is and remolds him as a woman.

…Except we don’t quite get that. You see, platforms beholden to America’s puritanical credit card infrastructure, like DeviantArt and Patreon, really don’t like the idea of child bodied characters looking at sexual imagery or being present when hanky panky goes down. I do not know if Maideneir was self-censoring here, but it really feels like she was.

With that in mind, the football bro, Eddy, belittles Alex by treating him as a child. He naturally resists, but he is already struggling to remember certain words and finds himself unwillingly acting in a more child-like manner. So much so that Gianna decided to put him to sleep. With the pseudo-child incapacitated, we are then treated to an expedited transformation sex sequence. It’s not really story critical, but I just want to praise it for its execution.

I appreciated the way character models are shifted and twisted as Eddy is forced into submission by Gianna, growing smaller, getting longer hair, and using his penis less and less as it grows smaller. The first person panels to make Gianna seem like this truly dominant figure. The way the light dims and changes as the process goes further on is a great expression of Gianna’s power. And I particularly enjoyed the way Gianna handles herself during this sequence. She is far more direct, more matter-of-fact, than Hailey ever was, clearly a professional man-breaker who acts as if she is reciting from a playbook. The gaslighting she does to Eddy as he voices objections, the way she belittles his masculinity and penis, and how steadily molds him into her ideal image. This is some pro succubus grooming action.

Oh, and Gianna also grows herself a magic penis during this, which… is interesting. I’ve been calling her a Radical Feminist— because she is— but I don’t think there are many that encourage using phalluses of any variety, as that is the tool of the oppressor. Maybe she just needs a male tool to drain her victims of male essence?

After Gianna transforms Eddy into Erica, Alex wakes up to find himself regressed even further in age, and with rather… odd proportions. This is a limitation of Koikatsu, as the software is not designed to facilitate pre-pubescent character models and proportions due to… good reasons. However, that limitation makes it harder for creators to make sufficiently child-looking characters, so 6-year-old Alex here looks like no six-year-old I’ve ever seen. The legs are about 25% too long…

Point is, Alex is now a preschooler, and cannot refer to Gianna as anything other than Mommy. He panics, but Gianna gaslights him into believing that he was always her daughter and that the Erica, has known her since he was born. Alex, now working with a vastly underdeveloped mind, cannot refute Gianna’s words or properly express himself. He knows this is wrong, that he is not supposed to be like this, but he’s helpless. All he can do is act like the child he appears to be, complaining as Gianna dotes on him as her fake daughter. Listen as she explains how much she’s enjoying this process, how much more powerful he is making her, and how he only has, at most, two days before his life ends.

Chapter 14 is when Gianna starts getting careless. She has already proven herself to be impulsive by keeping Erica around as her wife. A wife with no real defined personality after her identity reconstruction. Rather than just hold out in the sex dungeon as nature works its course, she wants to show Alex the house he’s going to be raised in. She could just walk about… but she has the eyes of a monster, so she decides to give Hailey’s body a complete makeover. Her age drops from the late 30s to 23— or 24, as the story contradicts itself later on. Her hairstyle completely changes while the color shifts from black to auburn. Breasts get bigger, height gets shorter, and her skin gets lighter.

It’s a… choice that raises questions both in-universe and out of universe. Gianna makes these changes for no good reason beyond thinking that being younger is better, but then why not just be a younger Hailey or make herself look like her usual body? Hailey’s body is the most recognizable character in the series, and this new version looks nothing alike. So why go this way from a creative direction as, visually, this is a wholly new character introduced in the final 20% of the story.

Whatever. After this transformation, Alex finally breaks down in a full-blown temper tantrum, triggered after realizing he cannot tie his shoes. Gianna, proving herself to have the maternal skills of a thermos, spends 30 minutes just letting Alex cry before she decides to give him a stuffed bunny, named Wobbly Dobbly. This plush immediately gives Alex the comfort and confidence needed to leave the sex dungeon, and as he clenches onto it, Gianna narrates over how warm and cuddly this makes her feel.

She originally planned on having Hailey raise Alex’s rebirthed self for her, but this sight touches her currently human heart, and makes her go ‘baby crazy’ for, presumably, the first time in her life as a succubus. So she decides that she wants to give up her immortal, indestructible, demon body and keep this human one, while retaining some of her powers, of course. Like I said, she’s just getting way too impulsive. Maybe the transformation filled her brain with a rush of hormones. TFs do that from time to time.

Gianna then summons her original body and initiates a SOUL TRANSFER to seal the deal. Hailey wakes up immediately after the swap, but before she can regain her composure, Gianna teleports her away, back to Gianna’s shop. Where she is immediately greeted by a shady-looking guy by the name of Victor, who is determined to keep Hailey busy for the remainder of the story.

When I first read through this, I was so excited seeing this scene happen. However, in retrospect, this feels like something that the creator should have done initially. To have Gianna steal Hailey’s body via a body swap at first, rather than a possession. It would circumvent the need for a second transformation, would give Gianna a more clear objective, and feed into something she later days, that all demons eventually wants to have children. You could have even thrown in something about how she needs to give birth to Alex to fully absorb his male essence.

Now, you might think that this would leave Hailey in Gianna’s body, granting her more power, and the ability to stop her plan. However, Gianna is never concerned about this scenario, indicating that Hailey cannot use her demonic powers. Or, if she does, she has allies that we see later on who could have incapacitated Hailey, at least for a while.

Anyway, with her spiffy new body, Erica as a hanger-on servant, and a placated Ken, who did not see the soul transfer happen, the three begin walking through the city. Alex knows that this is his last opportunity to try to secure any freedom so, when the coast is clear, he makes a break for it, running as fast as his tiny legs can take him. Gianna is not concerned though, saying that she can track her and thinking this would be a “good learning opportunity” for him. Which makes zero sense, because unbirth.

Alex fortunately manages to get far enough to run into somebody… and the most narratively convenient somebodies at that. Ken, Aubrey, and Lisa are all putting up missing person posters for Ken, and when Alex says who he is, they believe him without hesitation, immediately heading back home. Alex tries to tell them what he can. That he is going to be regressed into a zygote. That Gianna is a literal demon, and they cannot win against her. But before he can tell them much more, he passes out mid-sentence.

This messed up situation has everyone panicking, but none more than Ken. He is just now accepting that, after losing his mother and father, he’s going to be losing his brother. He’s going to be all alone in this world, have no family to call his own. As he wallows in this sorrow, Aubrey tries to reassure him, promising to support him. He is grateful for her words and affection, but with so much on the line, Ken is willing to do anything to save his brother, and goes to get the ultimate deus ex machina in any story. A FUCKING GUN!

Like any intelligent, greathearted, true American whose life and family are being threatened by a power greater than him, he grabs a pistol from a box and waits. He waits as Alex’s body regresses into something… evocative of the idea of a baby. Until Gianna enters his home. And the second she lays hands on his brother, Ken points the gun at her. Gianna calls him a fool, stating that mortal weapons do nothing to a being like her, but he calls her bluff and aims straight for her heart.

HELL YES! No nonsense, no fear, no bullshit, just a man finding the source of his problems and solving it in the best, most efficient, and proven way across all of human history. It’s the type of resolution that the people need to inspire them in these trying times!

Also, I just need to pause and highlight that Alex, in this baby form, looks disturbingly similar to that malformed baby from that God, I Wish That Were Me meme. I cannot unsee it, and think it adds another layer of bizarre to this story.

Chapter 15 opens with Gianna lying in her blood, regretting her choice to cast aside her body, but Ken does not give a shit about anything other than his brother. He demands that Gianna fix Ken and turn him back to normal. However, the die has been cast, and nothing can be done to save him. All he can do is let him die, or let him return to a fertile womb and be born anew. …Good thing there are two of those in this house!

Aubrey rushes in as this plays out and tells Ken to give her Alex, willing to do whatever it takes to save him. Gianna tries to snatch him away, but Aubrey gets him first, prepares for the unbirth, and it happens far faster than she could have expected. An umbilical cord shoots out seconds after she places Alex before her, and seconds later, he gets slurped up through her vagina. Her belly billows like a balloon, blood bursts as her labia extends wider than she’d ever imagine, leaving her panting, fatigued, and a full nine months pregnant. It’s only a four panel sequence, but for something this niche, that’s a veritable treasure trove.

With that, the primary conflict is revolved.

Gianna, still having demon powers, was able to seal her wound. She’s weak, but she’ll live, and in light of this failure, she promises to leave them alone. She already got all of Ken’s male essence, and she can get a child through other means. Aubrey takes this turn of events about as well as one can. She panics as Alex’s body regresses to barely anything, but she’s happy that, in some sense, he is still with them.

While Ken… Ken is just happy that his brother wasn’t stolen from him. He still deliberates if he should kill this bitch of a demon— and he should, but he has a harder time killing somebody too weak to even run away. Heck, she’s actually so weak she needs to summon Erica to carry her out of here.

Once the conflict is put behind them and the demon is out of their home, Ken and Aubrey take a moment to relax. After such a wild night, Aubrey is inclined to do something she has wanted to for about a week now and, already naked from a bath, she begins crawling over Ken. Ken is reluctant, but Aubrey is the impulsive sort, sees a good honest man before her, has a growing zygote inside her, and thinks that this is the best option she has.

For a woman who has never been with a man, she is incredibly receptive to him, and they share a great time for each other, but as things escalate to vaginal penetration, Ken can’t go any further. He feels like he is betraying his brother, like this is all a mistake. He still views Aubrey as Alex’s girl, and thinks that if he were more receptive, if he were more considerate and proactive, he could have done something. Ken wants to do what is best for his brother, to care for him when he is reborn, yet he cannot help but blame himself for what happened.

We then reach the final chapter, where we are given some much needed closure.

Gianna returns to the mall along with Erica. She muses about how she no longer needs this body as she is no longer going to have a child, so she plans on returning to being a succubus. Erica rightfully tries to tell her that she can have a child another way, pointing holes in her latest sporadic decision, but Gianna does not listen to her. I think what is meant to be happening here is that whatever curse Gianna placed on Erica is fading, as a result of getting shot, and she is becoming more human, more independent. Though, that’s just a theory. Maybe Erica is just like this.

Returning to her store, Gianna walks in on her man-thrall, Victor, having sex with Hailey in Gianna’s original body. Pissed, but not pissed enough to fight about it, she reverses the soul transfer. This leaves Hailey in an unrecognizable human body, but Gianna gave her a house, new ID, and other personal docs. So she should be good, assuming she didn’t care that much about her original life? Oh, and Gianna also leaves Erica stuck with Hailey, as she doesn’t actually give a shit about Erica, and Erica does not have a life of her own.

At their new home, Hailey and Erica muse over their future, and Erica thinks that the best thing for Hailey to do is turn over a new leaf, start a family, or start a more just and admirable career. You know, like a real social worker… or as a demon slayer! It’s about the best thing she can do with her life, after all the suffering she caused, but as a conclusion to Hailey’s story, it feels weirdly too good for her. Sure, she is losing her original form and life, and she has presumably lost her demon powers. However, like I said earlier in the showcase, Hailey is a damn monster, and I don’t think she should get… anything good.

Gianna, after her plans went awry, has chosen to walk around the streets of the red-light district, buck-ass naked, chugging booze out of a plastic bottle. She’s blowing every guy she comes across and ka-girling them in 20 seconds flat, racking up more power with every cummie she chugs. It’s actually a weirdly fitting conclusion for her. Gianna is an evil, but honest, person who ultimately got what she wanted. She got all of Alex’s male essence, and is now far more powerful than ever before. …But that doesn’t mean she’s happy. She’s a miserable woman, drowning her sorrows in booze, committing petty poof TF crimes in the streets, ranting about how she doesn’t need anybody or anything other than more dicks to suck and booze to drink.

Aubrey explains her situation to Lisa on the school rooftop, and while Lisa is willing to do what it takes to raise Alex as he is reborn, Aubrey wants to marry Ken, relegating Lisa to the third member of their makeshift family. However, Lisa is the worst genre of lesbian— a monogynous— and takes this decision far too personally, walking away in frustration, and out of this story.

This only leaves Aubrey and Ken, and Ken… has taken this especially hard. He has lost all drive after Alex left his life. He’s too overcome by guilt to pursue his job, to get off the couch, or even speak to Aubrey in full sentences she comes over, effectively moving into his house. Aubrey could have just left him stew like this, but out of optimism or perhaps guilt herself, she keeps coming back to Ken. Keeps trying to involve him, make him proactive, and involve him in her life. It takes a few months, but he eventually recovers, regaining enough composure to help Aubrey through her pregnancy as things escalate, and even tying the knot and marrying her. …While she is nine months pregnant, leading her water to break right after the priest pronounces them husband and wife.

From here, the comic skims past the first years of ‘Alexandria’s’ life, showing her to be a bright and happy child, though she has a habit of saying odd things. She keeps calling Aubrey by her name. Struggles to remember that she is a girl. And when her baby brother Logan is born, she insists that he’s not her brother, but Ken is her brother. As this goes on, it becomes clear that something is wrong, and Ken realizes what is going on. That Alexandria is gaining memories of Alex’s life, seeing them in her dreams. Dreams where she is a boy who was about to graduate high school, living with parents she never met, kissing her mother, and hopefully not anything Hailey did to Alex.

Alex ultimately lives on within Alexandria, and when she felt this presence, she felt a need to change back, to reject the life she had been born into. However, knowing the truth, knowing that these memories are real, that they were of effectively a past life, she feels reassured. Through Ken’s reassurances and support, she is willing to accept her fate, accept this fresh start.

…This is something that I like in theory, but not so much in practice. As I said a couple thousand words, ago, the theme and message of My Toy is that one’s identity is vitally important, that their gender is something that can only change from within, not through the insistence or abuse. And the key defining character trait of Alex is his resilience and insistence on being male, on being a boy. It is possible for that to change, but the idea of Alex going through all this, through all of this feminization, and losing the male essence of his very soul, and deciding to just be a girl is… Not only tonally confused, but a perplexing message.

If anything, I think this would be a great opportunity to introduce a character who has both the lived experience of a boy and a girl and decides to pave their own path. They have suffered from weaponized feminization, yet with their new body and new life as a young girl, it might be too disparaging to cling for something that was once innate, yet they now need to work for. As a writer, what I would do with a character like this is make them non-binary. Have them choosing bits and pieces they like, ultimately forging their own gender, their own expression. Something neither male nor female. Something new.

…Which is why I am not a fan of the epilogue. It cuts forward eight years, and presents Alexandria as a bratty, entitled 12-year-old girl who only begrudgingly entertains her little brother to appease her parents. Just… no.

From this snippet of a scene, Alexandria is expressing a stark lack of the wisdom, maturity, and empathy that I would expect of someone who lived the lives they have. It does not feel like an extension of the protagonist like little 3-year-old Alexandria did. It would be one thing if we saw how Alexandria ended up this way. Instead, Alexandria goes confessing how much she pined for the life she never got to complete to being a stereotypical bratty tween in all of two pages.

However, the epilogue is less about wrapping up the story of Alex/Alexandria, and is more about introducing the protagonist of the next comic, Winds of Change (2025 Version). As of writing, only the first chapter has been released, so I don’t have much to say about it.

Part 6: And That’s How I Was Reborn as a Girl!

Like I said at the beginning, My Toy is an absolutely wild ride. While it begins within the framework of a standard TSF groomer feminization story, it pivots into a bold new direction halfway through. All culminating in a narrative whose twists, turns, and bouts of cruelty kept me on edge right through its decadent conclusion. It’s a story not afraid to futz around with genre, take things into weird directions, or just indulge in bizarre transformations that struck its creators fancy. It expresses both a deep love of TSF and the broader transformation fantasy genre while pushing it into unorthodox directions. And that’s something I just love to see.

Now, I am not a fan of every decision it makes, and think that the story fumbles in a few places I outlined above. Such as Hailey’s halfhearted redemption arc that is used to introduce a new, eviler antagonist. How Aubrey is weirdly characterized and established as a bisexual sexually active yet guarded world-famous streamer who Alex has a pre-existing relationship. Or the weirdly emphasized non-character Erica. However, these are just blemishes in an otherwise remarkable story.

Oh, but how does it fare as a TSF story? Well, that is a bit tricky to answer, as it is not following a standard path. Yes, My Toy has the same feminization elements seen throughout most ‘gradual’ TSF stories I could highlight, but the transformation is barely even a core conflict. Alex gradually loses his masculinity, but that is merely a result of— and expression— of Hailey’s malicious grooming and abuse of Alex. This feminization is a physical signifier that he is losing control of his own mind, life, and sense of self. However, despite all the crossdressing and getting a body that would take most T-girls a year and change to get, he is still adamant in his gender, that he is a man. Not as a form of denial of the reality, but because he knows who he is, and will not accept a new identity being forced onto him.

Hell, you could argue that Alex does not really even undergo a transsexual transformation, as being transformed into a zygote is not really in the spirit of what the term means. Because zygotes don’t even have a sex, let alone a brain! Thus making this not a TSF story. …But we do have a full TSF transformation, as Gianna molds Eddy into Erica. So it counts, damn it!

…And I think that’s about all I have to say about My Toy. I hope that this inspired you folks to check out some of Maideneir’s prior work, as she truly is one of Natalie.TF’s Top TSF Creators to watch. After offering a three-for-three dose of dope with A Gray Day, My Toy, and How My Genius Daughter Turned Me Into Her New Mama, she’s got a bright future ahead of her, and I hope she can keep creating for years to come.

TSF Showcase 2025-03: My Toy

TSF Showcase 2025-03
My Toy by Maideneir

Part 1: The Witch With Magenta Eyes

Tangent: Groom Me Like Da Bitch I Is
or Transgender Grooming Action

Part 2: Disgusting Boys Make The Best Girls

Tangent Pretty: Gettin’ Pedantic About The Presentation!

Part 3: This Bitch-Witch Gonna Fuck The Man Outta You!

Part 4: The Archduchess of The Society for Cutting Up Men

Part 5: To Boldly Go Into The Uterus of Despair

Part 6: And That’s How I Was Reborn as a Girl!

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TSF Showcase 2025-03My Toy by Maideneir

Part 1: The Witch With Magenta Eyes

Tangent: Groom Me Like Da Bitch I Isor Transgender Grooming Action

Part 2: Disgusting Boys Make The Best Girls

Tangent Pretty: Gettin’ Pedantic About The Presentation!

Part 3: This Bitch-Witch Gonna Fuck The Man Outta You!

Part 4: The Archduchess of The Society for Cutting Up Men

Part 5: To Boldly Go Into The Uterus of Despair

Part 6: And That’s How I Was Reborn as a Girl!

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